Learning To Express Myself
I like to walk around at night.
Feels right. Might be that dark is lighter
On my soul, despite my fighting
Eyes beholding shadows forming;
Warnings scold my peaceful roaming.
Delight advising cries inside me
Insightful lies to smite my whining.
Find it’s time to breathe in deeply.
Feel me melt into existence.
Below my feet, I ground resistance
Free by feeling what’s persistant;
Tears absolving time and distance.
Going to need a moment
To step back from life today.
May have got a fever,
Been sick too long to say.
Brother’s coming over
Worried for me if I stay
In my room any longer.
Just leave me in my decay.
How do I shake myself
And dry up all the pain?
Need to just man up-
There’s nothing left to blame.
Someone show me friendship,
So I can do the same
And remind me that I’m human
So I’ll come out again.
Going to need an answer
To all the prayers I made.
Need it for my daughter-
She cannot see me fade.
Need to be a little stronger
For just a few more days.
Focus on my family –
God I’m scared to be afraid.
Would be a shame if it rained today.
I would have to watch flowers and trees
Cry rivers away from me.
Fortunately, I’m resilient
And expected this anyway.
But I wouldn’t wish it on you.
I didn’t wish it for you.
So I guess for the moment,
It’s just you and me.
Drying off the canopy,
And seeing what’s underneath.
I think we’re a lot stronger
than we were led to believe.
Got lost in the forrest
Hiding wet eyes from trees.
Forgive me if I lost you,
taking for granted you would find me.
akennific 