introspection – akennific

Bus Ride Prayer

Please God, when I close my eyes,

Take away my pain inside.

One more step, I’ll start to cry

And I’ve no one to sit beside.

I’m aware of what I’ve done.

I have nowhere left to hide.

Scared of all that’s yet to come

Will pass me when I close my eyes.

Prey

All I hear is the wind howl.

Scares me to think what it hides.

Darkness stares deeply and prowls

Around me, fooling my eyes.

I was wise to learn from you,

But foolish to leave my home.

Dreams now too old to come true,

And I fear being alone.

I don’t matter to what’s here;

Just a thing to hunt and eat.

Madness steeps my heart in fear,

Fills my ears with every beat.

I think my mind atrophied;

My throat has nothing to share.

The wind drowns out all I need,

And the darkness never cared.

Wheelbarrow

Feel like a bee

Froze mid-sting

Within me.

Steeped my being

In disease she secreted

And is secretly feeding

On what I believed in,

Now depleting the

Reason I even breathe in.

I’m sick of the feeling

Of sinning willingly

And living deeply empty.

Frozen Shadows

Like I’m trapped in the ice;

“Free my men to the sea!

Let them eat of my flesh.”

Plead to feed their way free.

See me lead to their teeth?

Sick of all this display.

Like I’m caught in the sway,

Spiked by jaws full of rocks,

Wiped my flaws from the spot

Where a healed wound lay.