lyrics – akennific

Spilled Milk

Beckoned fleeting reflections of you.

Behold to unfold such connection, it’s

True that I missed most the meat

on my bones due to you. Forgetting

to eat as I wander the wood.

But the smile on your face brings a magical mood,

And familiars are sweet. Look! They greet me with food!

Spend years here in place of my usual zoo.

But…I fail to negate the rate of elation

that races to spaces of imagination

Makes me want to keep this and hold it in station

So sickened with hubris I ended up wasting.

If it goes back to the ether, was it ever created?

Mental Health Day

I woke up, too tired to fight.

Opened my eyes, then closed them tight.

My broken mind was wired all night.

Choking the sight of me out of my life.

Think it’s best to hide away.

Shrink and nest inside today.

Blink twice to miss my life this way.

My stink depresses, please don’t stay.

I wouldn’t even remember me.

I couldn’t reason tranquility,

And shouldn’t receive transparency;

A fool, so leave the lights off please.

As only holes are welcome here.

The lonely souls you cannot fill.

Alone, yet something hates me still.

To sleep is justice unfulfilled.

Sharing a Toothbrush

With her little hand in mine,

I whittle riddles in my mind.

The subtle, heartfelt thoughts aside,

I wonder if she knows her size;

As underneath my nervous eyes,

Hides a brittle man disguised

That came to life inside your smile;

Your mortar makes me come alive.

From There to Here

The bravest thing I’ve ever won

Was never more than tearing down

What’s built around something I’d done;

Too ashamed to mark the ground,

And blamed the pain, without a sound.

Now decades stain a past once proud!

What made us blister, festers loud!

And deafens, deadens…

Shames me endlessly…

And washes the truth to be found.

Sunny Spring Sunday

My sleepy spring sidewalk

On Sundays lets me,

Haunt there, as a ghost

That everyone sees.

Cause, even the sidewalk

Feels something is missing.

As my smiles and waves

Fail in convincing

Me that I’m living.

But, at least there’s less

Impression bore down

On this little brick

I feel safe around.

The Mole

Going to need a moment

To step back from life today.

May have got a fever,

Been sick too long to say.

Brother’s coming over

Worried for me if I stay

In my room any longer.

Just leave me in my decay.

How do I shake myself

And dry up all the pain?

Need to just man up-

There’s nothing left to blame.

Someone show me friendship,

So I can do the same

And remind me that I’m human

So I’ll come out again.

Going to need an answer

To all the prayers I made.

Need it for my daughter-

She cannot see me fade.

Need to be a little stronger

For just a few more days.

Focus on my family –

God I’m scared to be afraid.

Crying Trees

Would be a shame if it rained today.

I would have to watch flowers and trees

Cry rivers away from me.

Fortunately, I’m resilient

And expected this anyway.

But I wouldn’t wish it on you.

I didn’t wish it for you.

So I guess for the moment,

It’s just you and me.

Drying off the canopy,

And seeing what’s underneath.

I think we’re a lot stronger

than we were led to believe.

Got lost in the forrest

Hiding wet eyes from trees.

Forgive me if I lost you,

taking for granted you would find me.